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Tulpa​-​Deluxe Edition {2020}

by BEESIGHDUH

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You make things so complicated You said Don't you hate it Keep thinking I'm the wrong one Who is right I don't know But when we love No one loves us But when we love No one loves us But when we love No one loves us But when we love No one loves us Today is not like before You think you never had it good But when we love No one loves us But when we love No one loves us back Back I'm goin' away-hey Goin' away-hey Goin' away Going away-hey Won't you stay Won't you stay Won't you stay away from here From now on go away Leave me behind Never say You're kind You're kind You're kind You're kind Left behind Left behind Left behind
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It's what happens when you go Oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh There is less to say-hey Hey Hey ay ay Hey It sound's like crap when you're gone-on-on Ga-ow-ow-ah-on Unsolved mystery Unsolved history History history History history His story It's what happens when you go Oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh There is less to say Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey Hey hey hey hey hey Hey hey hey hey hey Unsolved mystery Unsolved history History history History history History history History history History history History history History history History history Oh oh Oh oh oh Oh oh Oh oh oh Oh oh Oh oh oh Oh oh Unsolved mystery It's what happens when you go Oh oh Oh oh oh Oh oh Oh oh oh There is less to say Hey-ay Hey-ay-ay Hey hey Hey-ay-ay Hey-ay Hey-ay-ay Hey-ay Unsolved mystery Unsolved history History history History history History His story
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Listen Again 04:31
I'm not aware I'm fully aware that my pillow is stained with tears I'm fully aware that I repeat things over and over Til they sink in your head I'm fully aware that I can't explain why I care Goin' through my past experiences Living in the now was never as hard it as it was then Take every moment for what it's worth Envelop a passion like they exert Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts I'm not aware of a love that feels the same I'm not aware of my dreams when I'm awake I'm not aware that you listen to any thing I say Listen listen again Listen listen again Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Listen listen again Listen listen again Oh it hurts Blow my nose What was I going to do Put two solos in here So many layers It's what I'm doin' Know what I'm sayin'? I like turtles And then I might have to use the toilet after this What can I say I'm highly influenced by Mandy Moore Listen listen again Listen listen again Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts Oh it hurts
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The more I need The more I want What do I need What do I want I need that need I need that need I need a sensitive touch I need a sensitive touch The more I need The more I grow You more I cry The more you know I need a sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch The more I need The more it's greed The more I need The more it's greed I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch The more I need The more I'm greedy Need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch The more I need The more I want What do I need What do I want I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch That sensitive touch I need that sensitive touch More I need More I'm greedy
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I don't know if this opinion will last Ladybug come in and save me I don't know if this opinion will last But I'm sure that everything will turn out fine Every reason has a meaning And every beginning has an end Everyone is full of nothin' Every (one)beginning has an end I don't know if this opinion will last Ladybug come in and save me I don't know if this opinion will last But I'm sure that everything will turn out fine Every reason has a meaning And every beginning has an end Everyone is full of nothin' Every one has an end Every one has an end Every one has an end Every one has an end ooh ooh
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Over and over It's out of order And the symptoms make boredom Become a disorder Chemicals lead to a dismal regression I looked for a moment And turned my gaze away I'm a sorry victim of my own disarray Torment of the day
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They Was Me 03:09
He shall fight this feeling They shall fight this feeling They is greedy Greedy They shall die inside They shall find that finding They is greedy They're an emotional wreck An emotional wreck They're a wreck Wreck They're a wreck He is defeated He is defeated He is defeated He is defeated He's so small He's so small He's so small He's so small He's so small No one sees him
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In The Soul 04:15
We can't forget it Never will stop it Can not let it Make me have it And you win You win You win By losing Stranger calls Calls you near Stranger knows Knows you fear You can't stop Stop the rush You can't lose Never to win Here we go again Here we go again Never do we win Keep it in control Keep it in control Have a hole in the soul Keep it in control Have a hole in the soul Keep it in control We cant forget it Never will stop it I can not have it Make me have it And you win You win You win By losing Have a whole in the soul Have a whole in the soul Never, will we win Never, will we win Never, will we win Never, will we win
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We are holding on again To our invisible waves of attraction Our eyes connected today Your heart remained far away You remain everyday The reason I want to get up I don't want to ruin what I've got I can't let you know my thoughts We are holding on again To our invisible waves of distraction I should just give up Maybe I already have Twisted warped warped depraved depraved and rotten ooh-ooh-ooh oh-oh-oh-oh ooh-ooh-ooh oh-oh-oh-oh oh-oh
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Watching' the birds fly by on a dark afternoon Bet you didn't even know she was thinking of you He ate up all your lies with a fork and spoon He kinda chewed up the fat like it wasn't her food But if you're waitin', Dear It'll take him all night long To see where you and him stand And it isn't on a soup box Searching here and there for something to destroy And all you got was this crappy relationship A phone call away from ruining everyone's day You made your choice and you're stickin' to it But if you're waitin', Dear It'll take him all night long To see where you and him stand And it isn't on a soup box But if you're waitin', Dear It'll take him all night long To see where you and him stand And it isn't on a soup box But if you're waitin', Dear It'll take him all night long To see where you and him stand And it isn't on a soup box You haven't called it love since you were thirteen You haven't called it love since you were thirteen
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Confusion is a right of passage The message is too dark Too dark And the game is won when the loser leaves The day it seems is full of shadows in the mind tonight The day it seems is full of shadows in the mind tonight When it's over say Good days are back The sun shines in the eyes of saints And life is waiting to begin again The somber message is the end will end when you let it Take the falling star That is seen in the days and nights Of past resistance as a sign of what will happen What will happen if it stops If it stops Alone is what they say when life is gone An angel sing the saddest song Of how we live and how we die And how to give and take And to cry a river 'cause they never thought they knew The answer was wrong When it's over say good days are back The sun shines in the eyes of saints And life is waiting to begin again The somber message is The end will end when you let it The end will end when you let it The end will end when you let it The end will end when you let it And life is waiting to begin again The somber message is the end will end when you let it Take the falling star That is seen in the days and nights Of past resistance as a sign of what will happen What will happen if it stops If it stops If it stops Life is waiting to begin again And life is waiting to begin again
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Murder my love Murder my love Bored beyond belief Reasoning so hard to keep And Wonder why you're so high Wonder You're so high Better this time Worse this time Worse this time Better time And wonder why you're so high Wonder Why Why-I-I Why-I-I Why-I-I Why Stop Stop Start all over again Start all over again Start all over again Stop Start all over again Start all over again Start all over again Start all over again
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COMING TO ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS MARCH 6th, 2020

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released February 10, 2020

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BEESIGHDUH,B-SIDE,BSIDE,
DEAD MAN'S HOLIDAY, DMH
copyright "Christopher(julia) David(mary) Clark" (BMI)
"Julia Cobain Clark"(transgender name change)

Photography:Julia Clark
Art Direction: Julia Clark
Written by Julia Clark
(Christopher David Clark BMI)
Performed by Julia Clark
Produced by Julia Clark
Mixed by Julia Clark
Mastered by Julia Cobain Clark
At DMH Recording Fairview, MA
January 7th-February 10th, 2020
(All one person, transgender name changes)
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Deluxe Edition Only Info:
Tracks 13-24 Recorded in Westfield, MA
On Tascam 414 Portastudio 4-track 1999-2002
Remastered at DMH Recording by Julia Cobain Clark
February 25th, 2020

2020 DMH Records
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DEAD MAN'S HOLIDAY, DMH
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"Julia Cobain Clark"(transgender name change)

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(I am Transgender. Name Changed from "Christopher David Clark" to "Julia Cobain Clark")
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